User blog:NirakkiKaminari/Idk what I’m doing with my life

It’s currently 11:49 pm here and here I am, awake as ever doing this post. I honestly just feel vey lonely and I don’t think I’m doing well. There’s one question that keeps running through my mind and that is if I died right now, would anyone miss me? Ok sure my mom would for a couple of months but my dad sure as heck wouldn’t. All he does is yell at my mom, yell at me and I’m getting sick of it but whenever I try to stand up to him or my mom for that matter they tell me to be quite and ask me how much work I’ve done and if I’ve finished to do the extra reading, science, math etc. And don’t misunderstand this I’m not someone who is seeking attention, in fact it’s the opposite. I just want to write so I can at least have somewhere to vent to and feel like someone is listening. I’m scared. They’re going to get a divorce after I finish high school. I know because my mom wrote it down. I’m just a kid. I hear them yelling at each other ALL the time. Over pointless stuff to. Just constant bickering over this over that, when we eat dinner, where stuff is, where stuff goes. It got better for a while but then COVID hit and now... I just want things to be normal. I wish I were dead. Not like anyone would miss me. It is currently 12:04 am.Anyway have an awesome and amazing day to anyone who reads this! Please don’t comment on this I’m already suicidal and depressed. I don’t need people telling me the same stuff as what I get everyday. Please and thank you!❤️