File:Mike & will - all too well

watch in 720/1080p !!spoilers for season 4 in this video!!

well. hi there. it's been a while hasn't it?

i've taken the biggest break i've ever taken from editing, and it wasn't by choice unfortunately. i was gone for 9 months. i have been consistently a part of the community and posting since 2016, when stranger things 1 dropped. but i fell off. i've not been engaging with the community, watching edits, talking to my friends. i've just been staring at a blank sony vegas everytime i try, until i shut it again.

so if i was posting consistently enough, why did i disappear for nearly a year? i went through some really traumatic situations that i needed a lot of time to process. i lost who i was, and forgot what happiness felt like. i had been silent and was pretending everything was okay for too long, so when it all came to a close, i was empty.

at some point i chose to learn from what had happened, and to work on myself and my strength. i reached out to old friends, i got two new tattoos, i got a pay raise at work, i experimented with my expression and makeup, and i went to see my favourite band (5sos) live in concert. we waited for hours to get to see them up close, and i was so happy to have been alive to see it.

i had fully worked on myself, but editing still felt stained to me. it really upset me because of how much it has got me through. the last upload on my channel was one of when i was in a really unhealthy space and i felt like anytime i looked at editing it ruined it for me. i couldn't get that back, and i did try. i have so many audios cut and beat marked, with no scenes. because i just couldn't start.

when stranger things 4 dropped i immediately got that spark back. this show saved me in 2016 when i joined editing and was able to make friends through it, and it gave me the spark i needed for my creativity again. i was having the time of my life editing this thing. i wasn't stuck for ideas, once i started i couldn't stop. i'm literally typing this at 7am. i've not slept. i've been doing this all night, and thats not me complaining. i needed it. i'm exhausted, but i needed it. i missed my creativity so much and it just feels so good to have it back.

this season was absolutely INSANE!!! and having byler is just a cherry on top. i couldn't be happier. i love this show so much.

if you've read all of this, thank you for taking the time. if you didn't, i understand lol. i just needed to get it all out somewhere, and i feel so much happier now.

love you

colouring: departure by charizzaard twitter: strangerpilott instagram: https://www.instagram.com/strangerpilott/

- Oliver


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