User blog:NirakkiKaminari/Life is overrated

It’s currently 12:57 am ( little later than normal but oh well). And if you think that this is about me committing suicide or self harm no that’s not what’s happening. It’s just that I wish I was never born. And so does my dad. And before you’re all like “no he doesn’t your just jumping to conclusions!” Believe me I know. He always mutter comments like today we were decorating the Christmas tree and me and my mom wanted him to hang up one, just one ornament and he complained and my mom said “please you’ll make her happy.” And he replied with “ when has she ever made me happy? Never.” And a couple of weeks ago I heard him and my mom fighting and she said “she’s your child to!” And he yelled back “I didn’t want her to be mine! I didn’t want her in the first place!” But whenever I point things like this out to my mom she all like he doesn’t really mean it he just gets frustrated. At first I believed her but in hindsight I just hoped that that was it and I guess a small part of me always knew that he didn’t like me. Wow, this got real deep didn’t it? Any way sorry for wasting your time if you read this I know I’m a waste of space and that I shouldn’t feel like this because they are my family and that showing emotions other than happiness is bad. Please stay safe, healthy, hydrated, fed and most importantly... happy! Again if you want to rant to me or talk to me or yell at me for being a general baka( Japanese for idiot) go right ahead! Ily❤️Have an amazing and awesome day! Hopefully see you next time I post. Bye for now!!!❤️❤️❤️