User blog:NirakkiKaminari/Ik no one reads these

So my mom has COVID. She might have gotten it from me. I just feel so useless rn. Like, my mom is the one that provides for us, my dad might be able to get a job if she dies. I know this is selfish but what is gonna happen to me if both my parents die or have to go to the hospital? Last night my mom had a fever of 100 fahrenheit. I’m E L E V E N. What is going to happen to me. Would I go to an orphanage? God I hope not. I’m scared, useless and I can’t do anything useful. I have depression and anxiety. I can’t do anything right. I’m failing science. I have a hecking C+. That’s horrible. I’m stupid. I honestly shouldn’t have even be born bc I can’t help. All I do is make my parents feed me, shelter me and provide practically anything that within reason that I want. And what do I give them? FUCKING COVID. Now my dad is starting to cough so it seems like he’s got it as well. Isn’t this fantastic. My parents might D I E and I can’t do anything right. My mom is almost sure she’s going to die. You know why? Because last night she said, and I quote “I want you to know that I love you very very much. I always have and always will.” I’m just scared guys. Really, really, scared. Hope anyone who reads this has an amazing day or night wherever you are! Bai!